Bakudo

I want to give up ... not that that has ever or will ever be an option, obviously. But, seriously, after so long of 'giving it my best' only to come up with the same sub-standard mediocrity, I'm really finding it difficult to muster the motivation to keep this shitship afloat. I mean, it really is just a matter of incompetence. There are smarter ways I can study but I, the perpetually stubborn fool, can never accept it until the water reaches up to my neck.

...fuck off